It doesn’t heal

(Work in progress)

Time does not heal all wounds

The load does not lighten

I may have grown stronger, in a sense

I may not appear to be carrying much at all

But the load remains the same weight

Some days I carry the load uphill

My knees buckle

My body burns

My body yearns for release

So I let myself release

But the load remains the same weight

Some days I carry the load over long distances

My knees endure 

My body yearns

My body weathers it all

So I let myself go on

But the load remains the sand weight

Some days I carry the load through storms

My knees fail 

My body says it can’t take anymore

So I tell myself to keep going

And the load remains the same weight

I will never stop believing you should still be here

I know that’s not what you would have wanted

I will never let go of you, my tribute to you, my grief paid

I know that’s not what you would have wanted

But the load remains the same weight

I’m not ready

I love you

I miss you

And the load remains the same weight.